Angst, Kierkegaard, Sartre and My Future Novel's Theme

"Angst means a recurrent state of disquiet or dread caused by human awareness that our  future is not predetermined (by God, society or anything else) but must be freely chosen."

- Soren Kierkegaard

Characteristics of Existentialistic Thoughts According to Jean Paul Sartre in Being and Nothingness

• Existence precedes essence
• What is the personal meaning in a traumatized world
• Absurdity of life
• Be responsible for one's own actions
• No God
• Defy conventions
• Maintaining human dignity in a societal failure
• Be concerned with lived experience, not on abstract speculation
• Founded with human connection of life in the world and not from the subjective, detached views

Brief of my novel to explore existential thought processes

Part I

A military officer

Losing his eyesight

Suspended from service for inability

Waiting for the outcome of the trial

                                   - Psychological angst and ramblings

Dismissed from service

Returns home almost blind and shattered

Part II

Flashback

Divorce (tensions in married life)

Part III

Now living with seven year old son and a servant maid

Develops a relationship with the maid

Takes son and maid on a long drive

Son dies in an accident

Survives with maid - serious injuries

                                 - Angst and ramblings

Part IV

Leaves to wander in mountains in search of  peace and himself

Meets many people in psychological encounters

New developments

Failures in relationships and realizations

Part V

Returns home

Affair with maid continues amidst dissatisfaction

Emotional dilemma/tensions with himself and the maid

Questioned by parents and friends

Owns his actions

Marries maid

Existential thoughts