Sunday, August 24, 2014

மறத்தல்:பறத்தல்

விண்ணில் பறத்தல்
மண்ணை மறத்தலே

சிறகசைவுகளின் இடையே
மண்ணின் ஈர்ப்பு
தரையிறக்கும் கால்களை

















கூரலகை விண் நோக்கி
எழும்பி விட்டாலோ
மண்ணழிந்து போகும்
அடுத்தொரு காற்றலை வரும் வரை

கொடுங்காற்று
சிறகடர்த்தியை பறித்தாலும்
அலகு விண்ணே நோக்கும்
விசை குறைந்தே பறந்தாலும்
நினைவை சென்றடையும்

சுயமும் இருப்பும்
முயங்கும் வெளியில்
மறத்தலும் பறத்தலும்
மறைந்தே போகும்
இருத்தலும் இறத்தலும்
கரைந்தே தீரும்

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Angst, Kierkegaard, Sartre and My Future Novel's Theme





"Angst means a recurrent state of disquiet or dread caused by human awareness that our  future is not predetermined (by God, society or anything else) but must be freely chosen."

- Soren Kierkegaard



Characteristics of Existentialistic Thoughts According to Jean Paul Sartre in Being and Nothingness
  • Existence precedes essence
  • What is the personal meaning in a traumatized world
  • Absurdity of life
  • Be responsible for one's own actions
  • No God
  • Defy conventions
  • Maintaining human dignity in a societal failure
  • Be concerned with lived experience, not on abstract speculation
  • Founded with human connection of life in the world and not from the subjective, detached views

Brief of my novel to explore existential thought processes

Part I
A military officer
Losing his eyesight
Suspended from service for inability
Waiting for the outcome of the trial
                                   - Psychological angst and ramblings
Dismissed from service
Returns home almost blind and shattered

Part II
Flashback
Divorce (tensions in married life)

Part III
Now living with seven year old son and a servant maid
Develops a relationship with the maid
Takes son and maid on a long drive
Son dies in an accident
Survives with maid - serious injuries
                                 - Angst and ramblings

Part IV
Leaves to wander in mountains in search of  peace and himself
Meets many people in psychological encounters
New developments
Failures in relationships and realizations

Part V
Returns home
Affair with maid continues amidst dissatisfaction
Emotional dilemma/tensions with himself and the maid
Questioned by parents and friends
Owns his actions
Marries maid
Existential thoughts


Pandit Venkatesh Kumar and Raag Hameer